紫色小窝

I’ve celebrated my 26th birthday with

a) working whole day at an exhibition and extremely exhausted at the end of the day

b) Chris calling me from US and talked to me for about half an hour. Everybody around me was looking at me. I was really enjoying our conversation and laughing out loud as if there was no body beside me, hehe :p

c) unexpected birthday present from my boss (He only allows me to call him "colleague", haha…) so I can enjoy the limited edition of CK perfume and smell nice more than 12 hours a day. Also, a nice dinner with my friend and my sister on the following night, which was sponsored by my boss.

d) someone getting mad at me as I’m unable to free myself (If you really want to spend time with me, of course you MUST pre-inform me on the exact timing and what do you want to do rather than telling me "I’ll be coming over late afternoon". Don’t expect me to be able to KNOW and UNDERSTAND that your sentence means that you want to have lunch/dinner with me)

e) a GIANT monkey who loves to be on my bed all the times for me to hug but always ends up on the floor every morning. Well… My single bed is really for SINGLE person to sleep, not meant to keep another life-size monkey ler! :p

f) candle blowing (my ONLY time for this year) on top of a cheese tart from a friend, Michael, whom I just knew him for a day. It was weird to have someone so stranger to buy you a cheese tart which he never tasted before and even bring a candle and lighted it up for you to blow at a booth in front of an auditorium! Anyway, I felt very touching…

Any wishes for myself this year? I guess nope. I’m loving myself lesser and lesser, so don’t even ask me how much do I love those people around me. I feel like I’ve given out all my loves and I don’t have the ability to love someone again, I mean… someone really special in my life other than my family members.

Sometimes I also feel like there are more and more empty spaces in my heart that need to be filled up. More and more things seem to be missing from myself. I’m not really sure whom am I anymore… The only moment when I’ve managed to find myself was during the travelling trip to Krabi with friends. Although that was the worst trip I’ve ever had in my life so far, but it was just strange that I was so happy to be around those friends. I felt like I’m back to high school times. Yeah, I think I really miss that great precious moments…

Remark : To Paul, I hope you’ll be very happy to read this English is for you!